Happy Mother’s Day to you, my sweet mama in heaven. Today, my heart aches. Today, my heart misses you so terribly bad. Today, we took you flowers and Mother’s Day balloons and I sobbed the whole time. Today, I celebrate you in the midst of sadness. It’s been 40 days since your heart stopped and mine kept beating and all I know is that it shouldn’t have ended like this – so soon and so suddenly. My heart hurts when I think about the things that you will miss out on. I miss your beautiful smile, your voice, making you laugh, the way you smelled, and the way you hugged me. Some days I can’t believe you’re gone and that I’m left trying to figure out how to live in a world where you aren’t. It doesn’t make sense but I guess it doesn’t have to.
I miss you every single day but today, it feels like everything is here to remind me that I am living without you. I thought I would have so much more time with you but instead I was on my knees today, begging to see your face just one more time. Losing you is something I will never get over. I hope you know how much I’ve always needed you and how hard every day has been without you. But it doesn’t matter how much I need you right now because I know that heaven needed you more. I want to honor your memory in the way that I live and in the way that I love. I hope to live in a way that would make you proud even if you’re no longer here to see it. You always used to tell me that I was your little angel and now you get to be mine. I love you so very very much and I miss you always❤️
Saying Goodbye To My Mother 